Just waiting for right now.
So, what is a blog if not totally random. Today I think I’d like to ramble about this concept of ‘just wait’. I’d never really run into this until I became pregnant.
“Wow, I’m so ready for this morning sickness to end!” -me
“Oh, just wait until the 3rd trimester when you are huge and feel really terrible” -random person
“I’m ready to sleep comfortably in my bed again.” -me
“Just wait until you have the baby and never sleep again.” -random person
I don’t want to just wait. That sounds terrible. I would rather you commiserate in my present issues, thankyouverymuch. But I see what you’re doing. You are establishing that you, in fact, have been where I currently am and have survived and have now moved on to bigger problems. And I can appreciate that. But then I had said baby and it just got worse.
“Wow, this kid eats a lot!” -me
“Just wait until she’s a teenager.” -random person
“Man, this kid is fast!” – me
“Just wait until she starts walking!” – random person
“We’re going on a trip to Australia!” – me
“Just wait until she’s 2 or 3 and throws tantrums the whole trip. Good thing you’re going now” -random person
And, ok. None of those are horrible things to say. But seriously…buzzkill. I have always tried to live in the moment. To soak up the little things so when I’m old and crazy I have plenty to think about. There’s a scene in the movie Joe Vs The Volcano (have you seen it? It’s so fabulous) where Meg Ryan’s character is talking about how her father would say that everyone in the world is asleep…everyone you meet is asleep. But there are a few people that are awake and those people are in constant, total amazement. Ok, so it’s a paraphrase, but you get the point. I don’t want to live life asleep. Never have and don’t plan to start.
And bringing it back full circle…I don’t want to wait for something else. I want to enjoy my baby now. While she’s a baby. And then I want to fully enjoy her when she’s 3. And 5. And 13. With all the baggage that comes with those ages. And sure, I might be pulling my hair out, but that’s part of the gig, right? If I constantly ‘just wait’ in fear for all those other things to happen, then I’ve totally missed the amazing things she’s doing now. And I know that’s not what any of those people meant when they tell me to just wait. But it is how I interpret it.
One thing I haven’t been waiting around anymore for is my pre-baby body. I went shopping in my closet last week and some of my favorite clothes fit again! I had gotten up my courage to try different things on a few weeks ago, but after dropping another 3 pounds, I decided to try again.
And then my husband received the following photos on his phone. Because DUH.
I think he was in a meeting with his HM (high maintenance) client, so I’m sure he enjoyed the break. Pardon the workout pants with my favorite Anthropologie shirt of all time…but clearly, I was excited. And on the right, was one of my favorite outfits to wear (still a tad tight, but I’m hoping in another week or 2 it will be perfect!). Anthro shirt and Dress Barn (of all places) skirt…with brown strappy wedges. It was one of those simple outfits that just made you feel put together, you know? But best of all, this made me feel like all those crazy dollars spent at Anthro were not in vain. Woo to the hoo!
I love when you can finally see some progress. Such great motivation. Except you may notice my dog in the background. He’s unimpressed. Jerk. (Just kidding…I love that dog, he’s my first baby from another breed).
I suppose that’s enough rambling for one day! Until next time…